Balance

So far my summer has been very anti climatic. I suppose that has to do with the fact that I went to Africa and everything pales in comparison. It was a lot harder than I thought it would be. Adjusting to "real" life I mean. I was there for a month. 4 tiny little weeks, yet my entire self has been changed. I find myself daydreaming of the kids, wishing there was something, anything I could do to make their existence easier..... better.

So here's my question: How do you RM's do this? How do you go from devoting 2 years of your life to people, to a "cause" and then come back and live the way we do here? I applaud the things you were able to accomplish and the way you come back and "move on". Obviously you still think about the people and miss being there, but how do you get over it? I realize there has to be balance in life. I had this issue when I moved back from New York as well. My heart aches to be with my kids both in New York and in Africa. Maybe I should just have my own kids and then I can have forever to obsess making their lives good and happy. Ha ha maybe later ;)

I just see all the things we have here.... I am immensely blessed, and there is so much suffering in the world. However service trips cost SO much money. Its impossible to continuously be doing things like that. There is good to be done here of course. I don't even know where I am going with this. I guess I just need to know how, to a certain extent, do you let things go. Sometimes its an obsession. My insomniatic mind won't let them go. So help? Please and thank you.

Oh my summer has been very fun, don't let my post fool you. I have gotten to hang out with friends, and my family and as weird as it has been to be in Cedar its been wonderful.... I am so excited to move back to Provo though. Which I suppose is another plus... most people know I semi loathe the place... But its FOOTBALL season soon!!! YAY!

Ok love you all and once again thanks for reading my jabbering. I know it makes little sense :)